Making Love the Reason

I'm 19, male, sexy, a traveler, a reader, a writer, a player, a student of life, a charmer, good in bed, and mature. And because of my amazing personality and sex appeal, I have always been a heart-breaker. Yes, I'm Stone Cold Steve Abdullah.

There is a sad truth, however: My heart's been broken too many times. I still remember how my first crush turned me down everyday whenever I asked her if she wanted to play with me. I was 4 years old then. So much pain at such an early age. 

I've been in a lot of relationships since then. It's like being an animal in a zoo. The zoo-keeper traps you in a cage and expects you to live like you would in the jungle. Your natural habitat is taken away from you. Instead, you're given an augmented reality - a fake world like the Matrix. The zoo-keeper presents to you an environment which seemingly has everything you want and need. Grass, lack of space to run around, trees to climb, food you don't have to hunt, and pity sex(rarely). Gradually, this new lifestyle grows on you and you get used to it. From a wild lion, you turn into an adorable kitten. Just when you think you're doing everything the zoo-keeper wants you to do, you hear the complaint: "You're just not the same anymore."

It is true. You're not. What you've become is an animal no one visits the zoo to see. It's not enirely your fault, but you're blamed for it.

I think I've had it. Relationships aren't for me. I'd rather be in one of those national parks! You know, the wild animals you see in Africa on Discovery, running around like retards. That's a good relationship. But for now, I'll stay single and not ready to mingle.